Missing

This past year has been a series of ups & downs, & so it seems this month as well. I feel like I'm living someone else's life, that I'm missing something. This can't be it. I'm intensely missing something. I'm disillusioned & lost & empty & numb. No amount of prayer or faith has seemed to release me from my prison. I don't see any good in this.

Last minute gift ideas...

I'm not excited about being on call during the Christmas holidays, moreso because I'll somewhat be alone, which will give my mind too much time to wonder & reminisce. Anyways, I feel like I'm ready to move on in some ways. So last minute gift ideas...a godly man with his act together in my living room on Christmas Day with a red bow on his head....too much to ask for? We'll see what the year 2010 brings...

Lost in Space?...

I haven't blogged in quite some time. This is more for my own personal journey through whatever season in life I'm in right now, even though I'm not really sure what that is. This year has brought about more change than I have had in my entire life. Some horrible, some good, and some confusing. Right now I'm just trying to figure out where I'm supposed to be and what God wants me doing in the mean time. If you ever feel lost or alone out in the abyss, I can totally relate. Right now I'm just hanging onto driftwood, hoping to catch a glimpse of the shore.